Friends anew

Heartbreaking memories of the past. drifting slowly away . trying to keep it together but not strong.. weaknesses showing.. to you thats all you see.. i fake a smile on my face and leave it there for a while.. i look so happy but at night i cry.. feeling all the pain i need.. to get the strength to overpower and die.. concentration to complete what i need to succeed.. I'm crying while i use the knife again...no more love to send! what was once your warm embrace..is now heavy chains that lock me tight! i need the strength to carry on, to hold my self up, to stay strong.. my weakness again is pushing me down.. I'm pretending to be something I'm not... acting all preppy and what is in, whats freaken hott..just want people to like me, but what my heart can not stay..falling apart, from where things used to be.. now my hearts shut up w/ emptiness! the love i felt is all gone w/ one tear..!all the stuff i need, i fear! so different but what I'm not.. i miss you friend.. but my heart is filled w/ doubt.. that we will meet again.. by your friend, Danielle