Frozen Emotions

I try to eat
I can only stare at it
Hoping some courage will bring the strength to eat
But cant stop thinking how could he

All I can remember
Walking in to his room
He sounded so afraid on the phone what could be wrong
I never knew that he had fallen so low

The note said
Hillary I know you would come you always do
If your to late I'm sorry you had to see this
Please hold on for me never forget never forget

I watched his coffin lowered slowly down
My insides cry
On my face a blank stone cold look
If I show no emotion no will ever know

Ive forced myself to eat now
But I cant taste it
Its just a strangling rope going down my throat
Like a noose being tightened around my neck

I stand up walk to the kitchen no feeling
Just this never ending emptiness
I lay down to rest
Knowing all to well in an hour I have to get up
And face this pain all over again

~do you really think the comments will stop the pain~but feel free to comment and rate~

(c) Hillary Dorsey 2006