The death of Love

Its been a thousand days since Ive looked into your eyes....
mine have become sightless, from being alone in the darkness.
Fear is what drove me away, love is what wants me to stay.
You once said we\\\'d be together forever.....
When i said lets be friends......i didn\\\'t realize this was how it ends.....
i needed time to get to know myself....
Instead i said a lie and now as i look up at the sty i just want to die...
the pain inside me heart wont recede
hurts so much all i can do is bleed...
So now i clutch the gun in one hand....
the other holding sand, the sands of time.....
tears pour down my cheeks...
life ahead of me looks bleak...
and so i leave this note

hours passed and my body was found...
the TV blaring about a suicide, a girl not much older than 16, one shot in the head
found dead in bed....
The note was found and it read:
Do not cry over my death, for i was dead long before now, what killed me you will ask?

Sighing as i watched my friends and family crying over me....
Why hadn\\\'t we paid more attention?
why didn\\\'t we realize till to late?
was it fate?

No you never would of noticed me anyways.
Because you didn\\\'t care till to late
Yes, it was fate

Love lost was what killed the child inside of this girl.....
i only finalized this point