I'm hurting...crying...I'm dying on the inside

I'm not who you think I am...I'm not who you want me to be...I'm me and inside I'm hurting...crying...I'm dying on the inside and you can't see that...all you see is the smiling teenager on the outside...I look like I have no problems in my life the way I go around smiling, being happy, trying to make others laugh...make others smile...when all the while inside I'm hurting...crying...I'm dying on the inside and you can't see that....I long for someone to hold me in their arms and whisper they love me...longing for someone to mean what they say...three words that don't look a lot but mean the world "I Love You"..oh how I long to be in love with someone who love me back...but instead inside I'm hurting...crying...I'm dying on the inside and you can't see that...I hide my feelings so that you can't see me hurting because I knew if you saw me hurting then you would live a lie all over again...say you love me when you don't mean it...say you want me when truth is you don't want, need or love me at all...inside I'm hurting...crying...I'm dying on the inside and you can't see that...I want to hold you in my arms...I want to be able to call you mine all my life...but I know that wont ever happen...you don't love me enough to make this work...inside I'm hurting...crying...I'm dying on the inside and you can't see that...I want to be the one that you love...you desire...I want to be your wish, your dream...your fantasy but for now I will sit and wonder where it is all going wrong...inside I'm hurting...crying...I'm dying on the inside and you can't see that...Now I know it's not meant to be between us...we shouldn't be together...I'm not perfect I never will be but I tried my best to show you how much I loved you...you just don't care...you don't love me like you used to...it's all gone...what we had was special now there is nothing left...inside I'm hurting...crying...I'm dying on the inside and you can't see that...except tonight will be different...I will be hurting still...I'll be crying on the outside....and I will be slowly slipping away...going to a better place....to be with My Angel...My Girl who guided me through everything whilst she was alive....Goodbye to everyone I shall miss you lots...for all the people that cared...thank you very much...