A conversation in Pizza Hut...

I know in conversation I can become pensive,
After something's said that I might find offensive,
Or painful to hear, hurtful, or hard to listen to,
But though I seem upset, it's not at all with you,

I've been trying to figure out why I act like that,
It's not that I think you'd go behind my back,
Or lie to me or cheat with the people we mention,
And making things awkward isn't my intention,

When I go quiet, I'm not thinking anything bad,
Nor am I sitting there getting pissed off or mad,
And I don't want to stop you being honest with me,
I want you to tell me everything unequivocally.

I think the real reason if I look into my heart,
Is that I'm terrified of us ever having to part,
I just get filled with an overwhelming sense of dread,
It's a thought I can't bear, so it's always left unsaid,

I'm quiet cos I don't know how to express how I'm feeling,
I'm angry with myself cos behind it there's no meaning,
Or connection between what you're saying and how I feel,
But the emotions, even without reasoning are real,

So I'm sorry if it may seem like I go quiet at odd times,
but what you said has made these feelings come to mind,
The only reason behind them is I'm absolutely terrified,
Of losing you and this is what I'm struggling to hide.