There was this guy, who I thought was the most amazing, most beautiful, life changing person.
He made me realize that there was more to life than just getting by. He made me realize that I didn't want to just get by anymore. I wanted to live, and live in his arms and in his dreams.
I may not have been everything he had dreamt of, or something that he had wished for, but he was once everything, every single thing I dreamt of and everything that I wished for.
Even when I know, even when I think to myself that things will never be quite the same, I know that it will be hard to live without him, but it's something I have to do.
It's starting to sink in, and I admit
I miss him like crazy.
I have friends, and a family, and people who love me. I have a nice way of life, it's safe and it's secure, but it's not him.
It's not him and it never will be.
I just wanted to say this to let him know...there was a time when I would have given it all up...in a second, just for one more chance, one more chance to make him smile, one more chance to make him smile and say, I need you.
But I won't.
Not anymore.
*Never will I tell him I like him, I'll tell him I adore him.*
*Never will I tell him he made me happy, I'll tell him I couldn't be happy without him.*
