Because Of Him

I truly loved him unconditionally
Saw only the best shine through
To receive love back from him
There was nothing I would not do

When he shot me one of his smiles
My stomach would go weak
My legs turned to a mass of jelly
I lost my ability to speak

Praise from him was all I wanted
To know that he felt love for me
I pushed myself to the limit
To be the best that I could be

No one else compared to him
He was all my heart desired
I craved his attention constantly
He was all my soul required

Once he said he loved me too
It was sweet music to my ears
Finally my life was complete
Magically he erased my fears

I am not the kind of girl to fall
Sadness restricts my belief
But suddenly I found myself
Struck by a wave of utter relief

I realized I had been living in fear
Making decisions with my head
No longer scared of being hurt
I trusted with my heart instead

Oh how wrong could I be
For that boy crushed my dreams
Once again the blood flowed
Tears came down in streams

I then found out the harsh truth
It had all just been one cruel lie
And more than anytime before
I felt that I now wanted to die

My world stopped spinning
Trust broken beyond repair
My heart did not just break
I can no longer feel it there

I had so much to give to him
But he did not have to take it all
Leaving me not a single thing
No chance to ever again fall

I am now just an empty shell
Happiness a distant memory
Never again will I feel love
Because of what he did to me