Inadequately, insecurely I remain
no self-control-can no longer contain
self-punishment, cleansing-deserving
Is all thats left; pathetic failings.
Despise this constant repulsion
erratic behaviors-delusions
unworthy of appreciation and contentment.
Sacrifices suffocated in resentment
I eat, gobble-gruesome-grotesque
gross, repulsive, yet food transfixed.
Insanity paradox continuum
Caught. Desperate for acidic corrosion
the stench and the sting.
Rage, stomach wrenching, rupturing
prolong the satisfaction
safety from further false gratification.
Escaping, but ever racing nearer
closer to my obvious failure, severer
than any severed wrist, rotten abscess.
Im terrified, confused, possessed
Need help
Sinking from my own slaughter.
Please dont empty the
crimson vomit, congealing bath water.
