Why wait...

Il never feel happy
even if i try
because i no deep inside
i just want to die

il smile and laugh
i cud fool my best mate
but deep down inside of me
im thinkin why wait

i dnt like myself
i dnt like life
why wait to end it
why not just grab the knife

i cud hold it to my throat
and in 10 minutes id be dead
id never feel depressed again
or have those thoughts inside my head

no one would put me down
no one could make me cry
id be free and careless
god i want to die

just let me be free again
like i used to be
i dnt care if you dnt let me into hevan
i dnt deserve it i can see

i must have been an accident
a realy big mistake
i want to go to bed to nite
and then just never wake

i would like to go to hevan
but im sure u wont let me in
cos i hear suicde
is like the biggest sin

i feel so responsible
i have nothing left to love
i just need to get away
and be free way up above