All I want to do
Is slit my wrists and bleed
But because of you I won't
It's your warning that I heed
You said if I did it again
You'd throw away all we had
You made me promise not to
But I want to so bad!
I want to watch me bleed
I want to feel the pain
I want the red to spill
From my pretty veins
I want to mask my sorrow
With the delicate blade of a knife
I want to still have the option
Of flirting with death and life
I wanna watch the blood drip
Slowly off my skin
I want again to commit
My deadly little sins
I want to cut and cry
Until I fall asleep
But I don't because I know
You think I'll cut too deep
And perhaps I would have
Had you not made me stop
But it's not just a habit
That I can easily drop
It's more of an addiction
A way of living life
A way to relieve stress
A way to deal with strife
I know that I should listen
I know that you are right
But I still want to cut me
Every day and night
But also I know I won't
No matter how bad I want to
Cause never again do I want to come
So close to losing you
It'd be more than I could deal with
More than I could bear
To watch you walk away
To live without you there
So for you I've quit
Never again shall I cut
Instead of a blade I turn to you
And pray I've not misplaced my trust
