Swirling diving can't breath refuse to try don't want to allow me to cry cant see don't want to speak sick of seeming so weak,
you made me like this brought me down and being who i am i let you push me to the ground,
but you didn't stop until they all joined in now I'm stuck alone in the darkness again.
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you talked a lot of sh!t i did more than my best to ignore it but what got me the most was when you called me a whor*, you said i did that stuff cheated and lied but maybe you've forgotten who showed up for you when you tried to die?
but your over now nothing but fake everyday you'll get what you deserve ten fold in many ways.
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I'm afraid to love you afraid to speak,
the smell of your cologne your face it makes me weak, but i try to go on, i don't dare let it show, because the fear in my eyes is the one thing i don't want you to know.
i desire you, need to know what you think, to tell you the truth when you touch me i wish you'd be wanting me,
i love you this alone scares me puts me into a place where i once had no fears, trying to be the strongest one you know is why i lie crying here,
i want to please you in every way, i want to be the one you turn to for ever desire to be full-filled and taken away.
i want you on me, cant help the nights desires,
but the worst of it all is i cant help my hearts burning fire.
there's a lot more i want to say, but id rather leave it for a time where i can whisper it into your ear,
or tell you with my lips, with one desired kiss, one time one place, one thought pre-veiled.
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you push me contradict me tell me its all wrong,
knowing all it would take is a look into my face to tell you what i have for so long tried to utter, but refused to speak,
one deep desire to grasp the air beyond my lips,
this secret i hold that defies what is right,
the real reason for my fights.
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this confusion is from many areas, i am not done, but Ive come to a point even what i mean i say wrong.
