I Will Pretend

by BleedingAngel   Mar 3, 2006


Night after night I cry myself to sleep
Regretting that I again made myself bleed
The blade is so damn hard to resist
And every day I run it across my wrist

I am so sorry that I'm not strong enough
And for being the problems you're thinking of
I really thought it would be easy for me
To get help, but this is what I'll always be

I hide behind a smile and I pretend
To be happy, but inside I'm dying again
I starve myself and purge to be thin
But no matter what I do, I can't win

I know you think that I was a mistake
Cause you know my addiction to the blade
You have seen the scars along my arm
But never have you heard about self-harm

You just think that I am sick in my head
For wishing every day that I was dead
Well maybe I am sick because of you
After all the things that you put me through

So think twice before you call me that
Think about what you did to make me sad
Well this is the way I live and am
I thought that you of all would understand

But I am forever meant to be alone
I will never have a place to call home
But that's ok, I'll pretend to be happy
Pretending to be some one else than me

Copyright 2006 - Sabrina Stelmach

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  • 18 years ago

    by J.C.

    Isn't it amazing how important one person can be in your life? They can casue you so much happiness and at the same time cause you so much pain.

  • 18 years ago

    by imnotlikethem

    Aw..if that's true I'm sorry I went through the same thing.....I have a lot of scars on my arms.....I'm sorry hun.....
    xoxo
    Cassie

  • 18 years ago

    by Daze

    I hide behind a smile and I pretend
    To be happy, but inside I'm dying again
    . . . that was my favorite part of your poem, i always like to tell someone which part stood out to me, those two lines stood out me the most because it was powerful to me and showed a lot of truth. You write many sad poetry, but you write it well. I liked this poem but it didn't stand out to me as much, i've a lot like this one before, i would suggest more originality, but a poem should come from the heart, and i keep that in mind when I read people's poetry.

  • 18 years ago

    by Catch Me If I Fall

    HEY
    THATS REALLY GOOD. YOUR AMAZING...MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY....THATNK YOU FOR THAT POEM IT TOUCHED A PART OF MY HEART THAT RARLY EVER GETS NOTICED, THANK YOU

  • 18 years ago

    by Nee

    Gr8 Job
    totally loved it
    keep it up gal
    good luck
    lov
    Nema x0x0x0x0x

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