So what if i have a eating disorder?

~I don't know whether this would be under depression, i didn't know what to put it under~

as i sit here all by my self
with these baggy clothes people start to watch
i think they know what i do
as i sit here and crunch on just a green piece of lettuce
for lunch

i walk home not wanting to be there
i close the door quietly so none knows I'm home
but then daddy walks in and starts to yell
he starts to yell for no reason
mum just tires to calm him down

he tells me to sit at the table
we start eating dinner early
he scopes all this food onto my plate
as mum just watches me looking
he forces me too eat

i think he knows i have a eating disorder
i do admit it
but i think I'm to FAT
he forces the food in my mouth
one scoop
two scoop
i finish the food
run to the bathroom lock the door

one
two
three hands in mouth
food everywhere...

i clean the mess
as i look in the mirror in disgrace
knowing i shouldn't of had that lettuce

i look at my stomach and start to feel
i can see my ribs
all of then
I'm still not happy

so what if i have a eating disorder ?