Hate.

I want to scream as loud as I can
But somehow no sound comes out
Im shaking and I canâ??t control it
Im scared
Scared of loosing control every time I see you
I want to hurt you
But I dont know how to do it without hurting myself
Bells are ringing inside my head
And I dont know how to stop them
I cant make eye contact
Because all you will see is pure hate
My hands twitch at my side
Wanting to ring them around something
But I try to stop them
I think what to do
But nothing comes to mind except hurt
I sometimes cry myself to sleep
Thinking when is it ever going to end
But I know the answer to that question
It will never end
As long as you are around
My heart will still beat out of control
Almost tearing itself out of my chest
So I should warn you to stay away
Stay away as far as you can
Because I really dont actually want to hurt you
Its just that you can push someone a certain far
It wont only destroy me but you as well
Ill make sure of that
If I go down you come down with me
So..stay away
Far away