Blind To Who I Am

Blind To Who I Am

I once asked God if he’d still love me
If I took my life and if he’d mind
I asked if he’d still love me
If I left them all behind

I did not get an answer
I waited for a day
Then I grabbed the gun
And took my life away

I did not think about my future
Or about my past
What I never knew was
That life goes to fast

When I realised this
My turn was already done
That at the end of everything
I’ve never really won

I never won the games I played
I never won the fights
I never drew good pictures
Or had a good sleep at night

When God showed me this
I was angry and confused
I felt cheated and beat
Chained and then abused

I cried to God why he did this
And at first he did not reply
I could tell he didn’t want to tell me
Knowing that I’d cry

And when he did tell me so
I realised my pain and hate
Had turned into the worse
And had become my twisted fate