Dont let Anyone Know (suicide)

*** This really just did happen just liek i said just yesterday, please comment if you can, id really appreciate it***

This poem is nothing special
I know this as I write
but this poem, it will explain
whats going on in my life

Just yesterday it was
I made a very big choice
a choice to end my suffering
a choice to end my life

It was just too much to handle
Another break in my heart
I couldn't take it any longer
it was just too torn apart

I really tried to fight it
tried not to let the pain win
but its so hard to win that fight alone
without any help from a friend

It started with the cutting
just like all the times before
but it ended with the state police
breaking down my door

I took a bunch of sleeping pills
after I slashed up my skin
I washed them down with vodka
this is where the fight would begin

I tried so hard to stay awake
so hard to fight the pain
but with all the pills and alcohol
my effort was all in vain

when they talked to me I tried to lie
pretend that i was fine
but I couldn't walk, I couldn't talk
I guess that was the sign

They took my arm and said with them
I really have to go
what was gonna happen to me?
I honestly didn't know.

They hooked me up to a bunch of machines
and shoved a tube down my throat.
They stuck the needles everywhere
as the charcoal slowly slid down, and my head began to float.

I couldn't believe this was happening.
Why'd they have to come?
Surely just a little longer
and i would have been gone.

I layed there in the hospital bed
alone, no one around.
It hurt me so, why if no one cares anyways
why did they have to keep me above ground?

why couldn't they just let me go
release me from my pain
why must I go on living
a life I live in vain

But here I am now, the very next day
And I'm writing to let all of you know
that if really do want to end your life
DON'T LET ANYONE KNOW!

Copyright©2006 Amanda Hope Indelicato

***I say dont let anyone know cuz thats how the police found out, a friend knew i was very upset and i wanted to die so she called them, so really, if ur serious and its not just a cry for help, then dont tell anyone ur gonna do it***