I'm new to it

I sit in the tub
Water on high
So you won't hear my screams and cries

I think one last time
If it's what I want to do
This process is all so new

I look around
Everything so colourless
All that surrounds me is loneliness

All that is in my mind
Is that boy I love
Who doesn't even give a shove

If only he cared
I wouldn't be here
With a blade in my hand
And extremely scared
Wish he could hold me right now
Keep me warm and safe
Never let go of my heart
But he's gone without a trace

He never loved me
Never saw me there
I loved him, but he did not care

And now because of him
My life will come to an end
Because the boy I loved
Made me feel unloved
All I wanted was his love
And for him to care
But now it's all over
Life is something I cannot bear

I put this blade upon my skin
This will be the beginning of the end
Tell him I love him and that I'm always there
Tell him that I always cared

love anasha