Where do I go from here?

Where do I go from here?
I have the love and affection of two guys,
To break a heart I fear,
But is one relationship full of lies?

Old or New?
Which do I chose?
Tears have been shed quite a few,
A great friend and lover I don't want to loose

A history with one,
and a new found feeling with the other,
I thought me and the one were done,
Why do I even bother?

Do I trust one with my heart more?
No I think its the same sadly,
My heart is permanently tore,
Why cant I make up my mind finally?

Where do I go from here?
Old or New?
Who do I want to be near?
I wish I could be that bird that just flew!