Not again!!!!!

After all this time
after all the "I'm fine"
i thought i was happy
but now i see
scars don't heal
trust ain't real
i cant believe
how could it be
that the past is returning
my vision is blurring
i can't see my smile anymore
STOP IT!! NO DON'T CLOSE THE DOOR!!
NOT AGAIN!
I WONT LET YOU WIN!
I WONT LET YOU IN!!
NO NOT AGAIN!
GO AWAY!
i want to be OK
I'll live today
and continue to say
I'm great, I'm fine
no it ain't lie...
cant you see my smile?
Ive had it for a while
i haven't faded yet
don't feed me that bull$h|t
I'm walking tall
i wont fall
wash away my fears
wipe away my tears
clear my vision again
so i can see sunshine after the rain
don't act like I'm not here
don't pretend you cant hear
i know you see me
being happy
don't make me sad
don't make me mad
i wont fall in the darkness this time
I'll stay where there's sunshine
i wont let it get to me
i just wont let it be
I'm gonna fight to win!
I'll break you down before you get in
i wont trust you
no i wont believe you
you can lie and lie
but you wont see me cry
you can scream and scream
but you wont get to me
you wont break down this wall
you wont make me fall
and if you do
i have wings made by you
yeah! all the lies you told me
all the bull$h|t you fed me
made me stronger
so i can fly longer
I'll stay happy
wont let you get to me
you can fight, but I'll win!!