Anonymous

I can't speak, my body feels cold, my eyes are wide shut and my temperature is rising. It's rising, it's rising. It's getting hotter and hotter... but yet how can my temperature be gettig so hot if my body feels cold.Is it cold or is it hot, I can't tell. Am I making this up, is it all in my head, no way. My eyes are rolling into the back of my mind, I'm shaking, I'm nervous, I'm anxious. STOP! Is this really me speaking, writing these sad, sorry words on this blank piece of paper. Am I even writing anything, saying anything, doing anything. I just want to scream, scream into a different world. Fight myself, fight anything or anyone who comes about me. I want to stop this nonsence, but I can't. I wish to close my eyes and awake into another world. Please make it all go away. Make it stop. I'm crying, drowning in my tears, or are they really my tears. They're puddling up, I don't know what to say anymore, do anymore, so I leave it at this...STOP!