Me and You

This knife I hold is a part of me. Someday it wont be in my hand clenched tight. The blood may warm me after the blade has served its purpose. People around me screaming shouting. I ask myself why. Why scream I look up the one person I care about is crying. I try to speak out but blood comes out of my mouth in a gasp. Ambulances arrive as the girl I love runs off. I fall to the ground and everything goes silent the world around me goes blurry. The paramedics put a blanket over my head I hear the girl screaming now. Why, why did he do it he had so much to live for. I feel a pounding on my chest then the blood once more but this time all over me. The world is blurry once again after she takes the blanket off of me. I feel the warmth of her lips on mine then the cold again I hear a small whisper next to my ear I love you and always will.Once again I try to speak but blood comes out of my mouth and she cries again the blanket comes back over me. I feel vibrations and then the last thing I remember is me going down lower and lower then I thud and crashes above my head. I cant be dead I still have some senses left in me but everything is continuing to get silent. Only very quiet mumbles now. Her voice its there again I feel tears but still mumbles from above I can feel again I'm no longer cold but warm everything is bright and I see her standing in front of me smiling. I'm dead theres nothing left to think of its me and her standing in front of gates, wait this is just a dream Ive seen those gates before Its where me and her first kissed then once again another bright light now its an angel.Its time to claim your place in heaven. You have chosen your time early and left many very said especially this one girl.I look down the clouds separate it, I see her sitting by a tombstone crying. The tombstone says my name and I realize I killed my self I feel my neck with my right hand. Thats why I couldn't speak my neck was slit. I look down at my wrists the knife is still there sitting in my hand along with all my other scars I look back at the angel who is now gone. I'm left alone once again just standing in my misery looking down at the girl my tear falls on her I made it rain just by crying and she looks up she can see me. She smiles and walks away but says out loud I will see you when my time comes.