My First Crush

I didn't know,
A crush could last 15 years,
I thought it was love,
I went through so many tears.
I never told you,
I felt so strong,
I thought you would realize,
It went on for so long.
I waited for that day,
When you'd say you felt the same,
But you fell for my friend,
You caused me so much pain.
I used to think about 'us',
And i always thought we'd get married one day,
But then nature took its course,
And took you away.
Do you remember when we first met?
We'd just started nursery school,
I laughed at everything you said,
I must have looked such a fool.
You were amazing,
But i never could say,
How much i cared,
Now we've come such a long way.
I saw you on the bus today,
All i wanted was a smile from you,
It didn't have to be obvious,
A little one would do.
I guess ill never know,
If loved you or not,
But ill always remember,
In my eyes, you took the #1 spot.