Hands over my ears
hiding under my bed
grabbing a pillow for my head
When does the screaming stop i ask myself
When I'm older?
when I'm wiser?
I'm to scared to say anything incase i make it worse,
I'm afraid mummy will get hurt
i know she will get hurt coz its happened to me before
He came banging and crashing on the door
to scared to open it to scared to move
He hit me till i stopped crying
my body felt like it was dying
its been a while since he hit me last
the last bruise has begun to fade
I'm scared of him
so scared and alone
my mummy isn't strong enough to stop him
maybe if i was stronger she wouldn't cry so much?
Another scream
why cant all of this just be a dream
Thud, thud
Bang, bang
my door opens with an Early creak
in he comes so angry
grabbing me by my hair he dragged me to my bed
not caring how much he was hurting my head
tears threaten my eyes
but i refuse to let them through
coz i know it'll be worse off for me if i do
throwing me on my bed
leaning on my legs and holding onto my arms he said
now its time be a good girl and don't whine
i withdrew into my happy place
the one filled with childhood innocence and grace
He used my body
ripping, scratching making me bleed
Finished as he was he left me lying there
soaked in my blood my body in despair
My mother rushed in then her eyes filled with silent horror at what hes done
this man is a monster,
unlike anyone
She bashed me and dressed me and put me into bed
looking at the bruises the scars
i shall never tell
she shall never know how much he put my body through hell
although the scars may heal
my mind will never forget
My mother holds my while i cry
awaiting till the tears run dry
as she puts me down to sleep
only one sentence do i say
Why does he hate me? what did i do wrong?
before i drift off into sleep
the healing oblivion that is my mind
i see the tears misting my mothers eyes
all grown up now
no longer do i cower
yet i am still afraid
my life hasn't been a happy one
but one filled with sadness
no smiles or happy glances
The only time was i truly at peace was when i slipped into the deep oblivion that is sleep.
