I was pissed off I didn't want anybody to talk to me, I didn't want anyone to look my way think my name or even smile around me, I was in such a bad mood I gave angry a new name.
Then in he walks, acting like he owns the place, I turned my back I didn't want him to cheer me up, it wasn't gonna happen, I wanted to be mad that day.
He sees me standing over in the corner all alone, walks over and holds me close, I start to push him away but he holds me tighter whispering "I love you" in my ear, I keep fighting till I see it has no point, because I was where I belonged I was back in his arms, he holds me till I'm done fighting, till I can't kick and scream no more.
And then he did the worst thing possible...he had to go and make me smile.
All my anger slips away and I turn to face my dorky fiance now, his smile makes my day, his eyes can see deep in my soul where no one else's has been before.
How can I be the bad man behind blue eyes when I'm him little Texas Angel?
I know this is all a dream when everyone else starts to fade leaving us alone.
I hold him tight saying "baby please don't go."
He hugs me tighter whispering "I'm always in your heart, do ya feel me beating with you baby? can you feel me never missing a beat? I've loved you from the day we meet and since that day you have always been in my heart, when I'm all alone and scared out in the field with my comrades fixing to give up hope, my breathings hard but quiet yet under my armor I can still feel you in my heart, I'm coming home soon my sexy little wife, don't worry baby it will be all right, stay strong for me, your my rock, never give up anything especially not us."
He catches every tear that falls replacing them with kisses all over my face, and as he pulls me tighter and barely brushes my lips he whispers "baby I'm fixing to call you, you have to wake up from this" I shake my head stubborn, "not with out the last kiss," he smiles and lifts his head high, "yes with out the last kiss because that is a kiss we will never share, I'll be with you till our bodies are merely dirt and we walk as spirits among the heavens, now wake up GD it and tell me you love me and mean it!" He said laughing at the end.
I wake up to my phone ringing..holy shit its him!
I hear "hey baby I hope I didn't wake you up I know its really early, but I didn't want to go a second more of my time with out hearing your voice while your laying in the bed that I should be next to you in, waking you up with soft kisses all over your face, telling you I love you before the sun even makes it day."
I tell him I love him and start laughing with shocked tears when all he says back.
"do you really meaning it baby? Because I love you and I can feel you beating loud in my chest when I hear you say those 3 little words"
I tell him thats where I'll always be, under his armor and in his chest, that thing that beats so fast when he hears that I vow to love him for the rest of my life.
We talk for awhile..he had to make me smile, I miss him so much! And I want him home soon so I can have back that kiss before he left, it had so much love in it.
Because I want to give it back on our wedding day, damn it Chris come home soon and give me that kiss!lol.
damn you had to make me smile...thank you for that.
December 16th 2006:The day I legally give my heart to him because I gave it to him in every other way, the day we meet.
