To Hear It From You

You don't know how hard this is.
I doubt you ever will.
To know what it feels like,
To have a heart that needs to fill.

I hate that part of you
That always gives me hope.
That part that makes me hang on
Onto this tiny little rope.

I know this makes no sense.
Believe me, I know.
I've been confused for so long,
I wish I could let go.

I don't want to be here.
But the law says so.
I want to run away,
For the tears always flow.

I love you.
I don't want to.
I wish I didn't anymore,
I just can't make it through.

You were my one and only.
And I just can't get by.
I want to be free,
But all I do is cry.

Why me?
Why now?
Why can't I?
Why make a sound?

I need to know,
But I already do.
I know you don't love me,
I just need to hear it from you.