Invisible Pain

Why do I trick myself into believing what isn't real?
Living in a sense of false hope.
Why can't I control what I feel?

So empty and numb inside.
its all out in the open now,
no place to run, no place to hide.

The green eyed monster tearing me apart from the inside out!
Such an uncontrollable emotion.
Thoughts so full of doubt.

A disease that hurts to the core,
eats away at your very soul
Love is the word I think I'm looking for.

So much I want to say
Can't find the words
Just can't find the way

Nobody really knows my pain,
I walk with a emotional limp,
and an invisible cane.

Will I ever find the calm in my storm?
The light in my dark.
Until then I remain forever torn.

John P. Newby ©