I lift my head and turn it right. I shift left and then sight. I keep thinking â??what if this is it?â?? What if I take a chance and fall?
Have you ever dreamed so much, you canâ??t face reality? Have you ever wished for something unpredictable to happen? If you could, would you rewind time and do something different? Would you change everything you said, or would you say nothing? What if life turned around and you changed completely? Would you keep the change, or wonder what happened?
I took three steps left and one step right. My body shivered and my mind shifted. I lie here helplessly shaking in fear, at the thought of failing. I fear falling and not being able to get back up. Awake is like a dream and a dream is like reality. I let my body linger in a way that you wouldn't understand. You push me one way and I shove myself back.
I glance one way and stare at the other. My heart set on the stare, but my conscience set on the glance. I turn my head down and start to cry. I keep thinking what if what I have isn't what I want? What do I do when I can't get back up? What would be left for me? As the tears race down my face, I lift my hand and reach for something to pull me up. I keep thinking I can make it with what I have, but there is always and accident that stops me. I am afraid that one day I am going to fall and when I try to get up, my legs will fail to move.
What if your life was based on a bone disease? What if for the passed two years you have fought and took no victory? What if your life was sports and dance? Would you risk it all to play you game and move to the beat? Or would you stop because of the pain? Would you keep telling yourself the same old bull? Could you handle this? Welcome to my life.
