You take me down deeper into hell
you grab me and throw me away
at least thats how it feel this pain
this emotion pain including physical
this pain that is larger then my heart
is begging to spread like chicken pox
no one can cure this pain not your love
not even you torturing me everyday
you make me want to scream out loud
and if i do scream you still won't hear me
you can never understand I'm crying for help
that i need help from those who tend to care
there are wonderful people who care out there
but my eyes are closed and can not tell
i can not seem to see those who love me
I'm sorry i don't give love back to you
I can't feel connected these days to anyone
for that is why I bare myself in my bed and cry
hopping that I can someday die happy in the bed
flooding in my tears where i can start to drown
I can never look beyond this hopeless life
there is no hope for me, I'm miserable and sad
I'm depressed, not smart and ugly,fat not normal
I'm such a disgrace in this world just let me die
