Nothing to live for

I cant take the pain no more the blade looks so good right now i lay a towel on my bed turn out the lights and have some candles lit i sit on my bed i raise the blade to my wrist i close my eyes and think is the pain going to keep lasting or will it go away i don't want to live my life like this in fact i want to end it i start to press down then i stop and say to myself is this the way it was ment to be to end my own life to end the pain and sorrow do i dare do it will my life get better when I'm older or will i feel the same way all these voices in my head saying things all at once i cover my ears close my eyes tight screaming for all this to be over as i start to cry the pain and sorrow is to much everyone hates me for everything iv done no one cares i lay there still hearing the voices in my head i raise the blade to my wrist again slicing it blood dripping out the voices getting quieter this is it this is my life its slowly coming to an end i hope everyone is happy now slowly feeling weak watching the blood i close my eyes and lie there dead.