I wish i was on my
deathbed tonight
what better way
to end this plight
than to know that soon
i will decay
never live to see
the light of day
never again
look into the sky
laugh at a friend
smile at a butterfly
im already dead inside
you made sure of that
by making me hide
the hurt that i feel
you made me pretend
my happiness was real
and you always found a way
to blame everything on me
especially when
there were others there to see
and now ive got a shadow over my heart
and a knife on my wrist
and im full of the hope
that soon enough,my life will desist
so thanks for showing me
what you really are
and now that you mention it
i really do see
that youre not king and caring and lovely
but youre ugly and spiteful and boast
i think the part
'i love you'
is what really hurt me the most
