I awoke to find myself in a place I do not know.
My two loves had left me, for I am alone.
I search for you; I search for my loves,
My Fairy of Wishes, and my Leader of the Lost.
You both have wings that fly, but mine are torn.
Where are you? Why don't you save me?
I scream and scream, but no one comes to my rescue.
Hours and days pass, but the darkness never breaks into light.
The further I run the more lost I become.
Tears are streaming down my face
And they are chilled and dried by the wind.
SAVE ME!!!
Still alone, neither of you are in sight.
I stopped running, and I took my time and started to walk.
Today I found the ocean. Ironic for I remember not water.
This strange ocean is not like any I ever knew,
But some how it seems familiar.
The water is fresh when I need a drink,
But when I had a wound it was salty enough to heal.
With everything so thick with black darkness,
I find I have many wounds,
But the ocean and wind would come together
And healed them all so only scars remain in their place.
Still I look for my loves, so I left the ocean
To search again for you.
Nothing is familiar but the wind that follows and guides me
Everywhere I choose to go.
Where have you gone? Why have you left me here alone?
FIND ME!!!
I have more scares than original flesh.
And the pain is more than I can bear.
Sometimes I stubble and trip and fall,
But mostly I crawl on my hands looking for whatever I have to look for.
Nothing is left for me anymore, the only two who cared,
Still have not searched me out to take me home
And hold me in their sweet embrace.
Where were you when I awoke in the darkness?
The air has become as thick as the black, and I just wait now to die.
Hope is lost.
What is hope now? I have forgotten the meaning of that word.
Some familiar force pushes me down, but it is not the wind,
For the wind is what helps me to stand again when I am ready.
There is nothing left for me.
No future, no love, no hope, no life.
HATE ME!!!
I manage my way back to the strange ocean,
And it cleans my wounds,
And strengthens me with a drink.
The wind dries my wounds and my falling tears.
I can't take this anymore,
I am ready to die.
I run out to the ocean and swim far out,
Hoping the ocean will drown me,
Before I go under I scream to you both:
Where are you?
Why haven't you come to find me?
I have waited and searched, but still I do not find you.
You were my only loves,
It's too late now I guess, if you find me alive, kill me!
Then the wind whispers in my ears with a familiar voice.
And the ocean roars with words of love.
They mix into one and embrace me.
Then tears of joy and shame and guilt flood and mix into the ocean.
My Fairy of Wishes became the ocean,
For in this world, the evil god would allow me any love.
And wishes were forbidden.
And my Leader of the Lost became the wind,
For it was the only way he could whisper to me the words I needed to hear,
And these words have been forbidden to be spoken.
The darkness has become my home,
And I have grown accustom to my blindness.
I need not my sight,
So long as I have my loves.
FORGIVE ME!!!
