Hiding

Close my eyes and count to ten
breathe in deep and just pretend
pretend I'm fine and nothings wrong
that the hollow pain is finally gone

lift my head so no knows
inside I'm crying, my heart has froze
I hate to lie, but it's the only way
so one sees through my charade

hide my secrets, hide them well
my body's here, my soul's in hell
If they saw my tears, they would worry
no one can learn of my secret fury

just act normal, smile and nod
if he listened, I'd pray to god
they don't know and mustn't ever
or else I'd fail in my endeavor

On the outside, I'm only lying
because on the inside, I am dying
so many secrets, so much pain
nothing to lose, nothing to gain