I need to get out of this place,
never to return to the memories of pain,
not to be heard from again,
for this fight i just can not win.
I'm sick of all these nervous breakdowns,
I'm tired of the trembling and shaking hands,
I can not handle any more stress,
so instead I'm going to turn and walk away hoping for the best.
All you ever did was try and bring me to the brink,
to the point where my blood stains the sink,
I was so ready to give up,
i had finally had enough.
My last ally was my razorblade,
But from me you took it away,
So i had no choice but to turn to the pills,
but all that brought me was headaches and chills.
So i decided to turn to the noose,
i had nothing to lose,
a few minutes of kicks and gasps,
and that would be the last.
All my life was bringing me,
was empty promises and broken dreams,
all i could give in return,
was satans ravishing burn.
Everynight I'd kneel at the edge of my bed,
and I'd pray to spill no more red,
but god loved to see me suffer from up above,
and sent me nothing but the devils love.
He came to me at night,
and whispered that everything would be alright,
all I'd have to do was whatever he told me,
and than the happiness i could see.
They always told me i needed help for what i was doing,
But they shouldn\'t just look into my crystal clear eyes just assuming,
I'm leaving and not coming back,
i could not stand the happiness i lacked.
People always judge you,
before getting to know you through and through,
that started to drive me insane,
and left me turning to pain.
With you I'm leaving all our memories,
i do not need them wherever my life may lead,
i will leave behind our cute photographs,
all our tears and our laughs.
I'm leaving behind the laughter and pain that we once shared,
I'm forgetting all the times that you said you cared,
I'm leaving my tears with you,
and the words "we will make it through."
So now it is my time to leave this place,
having only a few more moments of pain,
I will hold the gun to my head and close my eyes,
pull the trigger and go to the skies.
I will gain my halo and wings,
and other angelic things,
I will go the heavenly gates,
ask god for one more chance for my sake.
If he lets me in,
accepts me for all my mistakes and sins,
it will be the biggest thing that i have ever achieved,
and that is why i had to leave.
My life was leading nowhere,
the thought of even just another hour i could not bear,
so now in my days of decieving,
i say good-bye and wish you the best in my leaving.
