Cant Take It

What the f**k is wrong with me
why must I feel this way?
Im so f**king tired of living like this
Its the same thing everyday.

This is a bunch of bulls**
I cant take it anymore.
It never seems to get better
its just worse than before.

I dont know if thats possible,
but this this sh** I cannot take
Please, Dear God kill me
just for my sake.

I know it seems selfish
I know it seems vain
but my f**king God
I cant stand this pain.

It seems so useless
No matter how hard I try
I always end up depressed
but never seem to cry

Im just so tired of trying
so much effort doesnt go far
Id much rather be trashed
sitting at a bar

But No, someone out there stops me
from trying to waste my life
they still want me to - try - for them
They dont care of my strife

I wasnt to drown myself in music
and drugs that fill my mind
They seemed the only thing
that freed me from this bind

I know they arent a solution
but they seemed to f**king numb me
Thats all I really want; peace
Why cant you f**king see??