Speachless

You me the "perfect child"
I'm the one that has to be good
But the things you don't know
How can you say I don't hurt

All your lies remind me
Of all the things
I don't want to be
You build your life ring by ring

Your life is a song
But it depends on how you sing it
If you sang it different
Maybe there wouldn't be so much pain

I'm a real bad child at heart
I do things you think only my friends do!
But why the hell should I tell you?

I lead two lives Like I'm some kind of spy
My friends know the real me
But my family. Well thats a different story

I act all happy in side
But the pain can only be seen inside
You say I'm happy
Because that's what you want me to be

You don't want another dysfunctional child
So my past few month
Is just a fake smile
I paste it on everyday

There is some many things I want to say
On this very day
the day I wish I wasn't here!
But there are no words that can say

Broken and tired
Lost and not found
My world spins round and round
My feet haven't touched the ground

So many emotions
Words will never express
The way I HATE you
But the question is
Why do I HATE you?

Is it because you left me?
Is it because you lie?
Is it because you hate me?
I think it's because you don't love me

You say you love me
But how can this be?
Is it a lie?
Or is it the truth?

So many questions running through my mind
Please show me a sign!
Show me you care!
Show me you'll always be there!

I don't know why i write about you
But I just do
Its the only way
To say what i want to say!

This isn't the end
I have more thoughts to send
About all the pain
With all your words yo slain me!!