Kinda crappy but i was in a fight with my bf and i just wrote what i was feeling and this is what i came up with, please vote and comment!!!
How do I pour my heart out to you
When I am so afraid of what will happen?
I love you more than words can say
but there is so much I am holding back
secrets that I am too afraid to tell
desires I am too afraid to spill
mistakes I am too afraid to let loose
regrets I am too afraid to put into the picture.
All these thoughts are gnawing at my insides
Slowly tearing me apart
They rip at my heart and gnaw at the freshly beating organ
The taste of blood trickles onto the tongue of the beholder
My spirit is sucked straight out from my mouth
My soul is lost into time, fading with the faces in my mind
A picture of you all black and white, rusting away with every passing second
You say you care, but do you really?
These tears are streaming from my eyes
These screams are muffled into my pillow
The blood is dripping from my wrists
And I don't know what to do
I don't think that I can go on like this
These thoughts they are clouding through every time I think of you
You expect me to change so much
And for the sake of you I really tried
I took no more pills, I cut no more slits
I drank no more alcohol, and I puked no more after every meal
But when I ask you to change one simple little habit
You don't even do that
And it makes me wonder what I am doing this for?
A c.d. of our conversations plays over and over inside of my crying mind
Like a mix tape it repeats and shuffles
But I am blinded by the arguments, I am blinded by the resentment
I close my eyes and try to picture where we'll be
Every single day this love flows through me
But in the end will it really be worth getting my heart broken?
As I do every single day, every single night?
You asked me to tell you what was making me this way
And now I have, so are you happy now?
So the next time that I have a fake smile on my face
The next time the tears are streaming from my eyes
Don't even ask what is wrong
Because now you know what is going through my mind
I want this to last, but it takes two people
So if you have it in you to try, then lets try
If not, then let me go before I fall even deeper than I have.
