Choice

Cold and misunderstood,
You feel like you haven't done what you should
And morning is a far away concept now,
Dreams of the day you'd be allowed
To breathe, to see and feel like you live
But as it breaks apart, only you deceive.

No more tears to cry, nothing more
And when not even what you swore
Could be achieved you linger in the door.
Giving up, yet no one's there,
It's better that way, they won't see you laying bare;
They never did, never understood,
Never saw the world like you could.

Superficial and broken,
Lips dried but cheeks are soaken'
Dive inside and look around
Find the pieces that needed to be found.
They were always there, calling your name,
But you never heard them, oh what a shame,
They shone like diamonds in the sky,
Angels sworn from heaven for you to fly

But that's when you began to cry,
Ripped their wings and crushed them inside.
Feeling like a murderer you ran away but you couldn't hide.
Screaming so loud again you can't hear,
Blinded by this darkness, by this fear.
Forced to stop as the panic disappears,
Their cries can finally be heard but they fell like sharpened spears.
And as the light seeps thru the cuts,
The door no longer shuts.

This is the consequence:
No borders and no fence,
Free again to live your life
Again in this restless hive
But at the back of your mind you can still hear their voice,
Calm now...well, until the next choice...

*please comment! this poem means a lot to me, describes a side of me that i never really showed until i began writting this and I'd realy appreciate your toughts, thank you. *