************PAST************
Slowly the night seems to goes by
And sleeping alone as I cry
weeping on pillows next to me
Crying until I fall asleep
Lonely nights I never could share
Due to reason not sincere
I feel no pain when you are here
Yet push you out and shed a tear
I would wake up from a bad dream
With flashes of sweat as I scream
And look for you to comfort me
And yet again, my bed empty
I don't want to leave life a mess
And I know it makes me depress
Pushing you out when I should pull
To see you smile as it glows
I don't mean to push you away
I really want you just to stay
Its hard to express how I feel
And knowing that you are Sincere
I guess I wait for you to leave
Just like the rest as I do plead
Pleading for them to stay with me
But yet they seem to leave me be
I blame myself pushing away
I blame myself to this day
And without you I am not whole
Without you, my season stay cold
Cold from having to eat alone
Cold from panting here by the phone
Wondering if I'm just a fling
Wondering if my phone will ring
**********PRESENT***********
But as I fight I see the truth
I know they seem to show no Ruth
But meeting you I then showed smile
And now my spirits shows guile
At first was scared to let you in
But then you up lifted my chin
You made me see what all I've tried
You made me hold upon my pride
You make me laugh and sing again
You make me feel special within
And for that I will always care
For someone special and sincere
You laugh and kid around with me
Your laughter makes a blind man see
Your personality's so sweet
You presents makes my life complete
But just as I thought you've gave up
You proved me wrong and help on tough
Its like you'd see me weep and sad
And you'd cry too and hold my hand
For this I honor you as brave
Without you I am not saved
From judging all man just the same
From hate on man I hold no blame
I'd like to give you many thanks
For being there when my minds blank
And giving out a helping hand
And showing me there's good in man
And with these words that I leave you
I hope you share your wisdom tools
To those who were in lost of words
Just like me when showing no spurs
