Alone

All alone in my dark corner,
Surrounded by thoughts and feelings.
Nobody to interrupt my time,
Or ask me why i'm grieving.

My friends are slack and never there,
My mother lies to my face.
My father opens up and talks to me,
Some things make my heart race.

Everywhere that i go,
Whispers follow my every move.
Rumours about my inner child,
I cannot begin to soothe.

Silly jokes and hurtful words,
I once said about my friend.
Thanks to the pain that i caused,
My friends began to bend.

I've lost those mates close to me,
Over a harmless joke.
i realise now that its my fault,
My life's beginning to choke.

I've tried to mend, the things i said,
Forgiveness i cannot gain.
o dear lord i ask you please,
Take away my pain.

Let my friends come back to me,
Let me rest my head,
In the room I call my own,
As i lay down on my bed.

My sleep is restless,
I cannot see.
What lies so near,
In front of me.

Tired and alone,
Ready to sleep.
My life - I am ready,
Forever to keep.

I brake a razor,
Place it against my skin.
I slice it open,
The blood pouring from within.

The pain is sharp,
Blood spilling everywhere.
It stings like hell,
From a blast of fresh air.

I fall to the ground,
clutching my wrist.
The life leaves my eyes,
I tense like a fist.

The ground has stained,
In shades of red.
I am no more,
Just lying there dead.

*This is another poem that i wrote when i was depressed. i cut my wrist so deep that i could see my vein.*