Thinking I was over him
Stopped crying every night
Didn't wonder why he did it
And if what he did was right
Now I'm dating his best friend
And he says he doesn't care
Then why does he keep looking at me?
But acting like he won't be there?
Really, am I still his friend?
And is what my friends say true?
Does he actually still "love" me?
And is still willing to say "I love you?"
Why do I even care anymore?
I have a boyfriend that loves me
Am I still in love with _____?
And can't see the feelings everyone can see?
Why did he keep looking at me
Every time he passed me by?
Why did he have a sad expression on his face?
Tell me the truth, why?
Every time he saw my boyfriend and I
Sitting together, hanging out together
He wouldn't look at me at all
Will this go on forever?
My friends say it's a no brainer
That he is just plain jealous
Claim that he still "loves" me
And that it's so obvious
If it is, then why can't I tell?
And why do I want it to be true?
Is it that I want him back
And he's the one I want to say "I love you" to?
Why am I thinking about him
When I have his best friend by my side?
Why must I keep chasing him
When I have someone who's arms are open wide?
Must I always choose the ones that I cannot have?
The ones who I can trust no longer
Must I always fall for the players
Or the ones who already love another?
He's the one that broke up with me
He gave me my broken heart
So why do I continue praying and
Wishing that we wouldn't be apart?
Today when the boys had to choose
A girl to skate with for a while
I watched him choose my friend much later
And I could've sworn I saw him smile
While my guy stayed with me
Since I wasn't skating with him
Then as my ex passed me by
The lights around began to grow dim
Our eyes met for just a split second
And I felt my heart drop
The touch of my boyfriend's hands disappeared
As I felt time stop
And from that moment
He's been all I could think about
Including his best friend
Who would, out of my heart, I'd kick out?
I can't leave them both there
I'll just end up hurting my guy
But why does my ex say he doesn't care?
Please, just tell me why.
Do I still have feelings for my ex?
Do I even love my own boyfriend?
And if I end up going with my ex...
Will we still be friends till the end?
I don't want to lose either of them
But one seems to have already left
How come I don't chase after him?
For he had committed a theft
He ran away with my heart
And threw pain into my life
He took away every smile I had
And gave me a desire to become his wife.
Please someone help me
I just want the truth to be heard
I do not wish to get hurt
Nor come in third.
Neither do I desire to be second
On his top three list
I swear if he keeps this going
He'll find my fist
Who should I choose?
Is my ex worth it?
Should I choose him again?
And shatter my friend to bits?
Or shall I turn down the player
And stay with the guy I do not love
So that he may continue to be happy
And have his "angel from above?"
[c] 2O05
