I Still Love You

Ever since we broke up
Our "friendship" is so confusing
You're sending mixed signals
That make me keep questioning

First Week:
You and me are still close
You're still hugging me from behind
Still loving me, I suppose

Holding me still
Making sure I'm not alone
Acting like we still together
Still calling me on the phone

Second Week:
You've stopped talking to me
There's something wrong with you
Are there lies that I cannot see?

You won't even make eye contact
No more hugging or holding like before
I keep wondering what's wrong?
Why aren't you talking to me anymore?

Third Week:
We won't even look at each other
Not a single hug this week
It's as if we were never together

Avoiding me at the dance
Simply walking away when I cry
What the f u c k happened to you
Keep telling me a lie

Fourth Week:
I'm going to start writing the day
For the fourth day of the fourth week
Is today

Monday:
We didn't talk to each other today
Until after school, you walked up and
Hugged me from behind, saying hey

Tuesday:
I had a field trip to the zoo
And after school, you didn't even look at me
While I wanted to say, "I love you."

Wednesday:
I was sick so I didn't come to school
Then you signed on while I was on
And even then, you didn't say anything

Thursday -- Today:
During lunch, you're standing there before me
As we're in the library with our friends
Having you look at me makes me so happy

As we caught a glimpse of each other
And my eyes met yours
I saw the thing every girl wanted
That you couldn't find in stores

Just as we looked longer than we ever did
After breaking up with each other
I realized I might still love you
And longed for us to get back together

And then after school
I see you standing there
You're looking my way
And open your arms with care

I walk into them, hugging you
As I feel your arms around me
Now this really had me wondering
Was there feelings I couldn't see?

The way you act now
What's it supposed to mean?
Am I supposed to know what you're doing
And see the feelings unseen?

Just as my feelings begin to disappear
And you're beginning to mean nothing
You just HAVE to do something like that
And bring back everything

Why are you doing this to me?
Do you still feel something?
Are we meant to be together?
Is this everything or nothing?

God, please tell me
You're tearing apart my heart
The way you're acting
Makes me wish we weren't apart

The way you hug me
It's the same as before
But being in your arms
Makes me wish for so more

My world feels like it's cracking
It's going to shatter soon, like glass
Ever since you stopped loving me
I've been kicked off first class

Why are you acting like you love me one moment
Then next, you don't got no more love?
Man, what happened to the _____ that I knew?
My thought to be "angel from above"

I don't know you no more
And I don't know what to do
But all I know is that
I still love you.
[c] 2O05