I Told You I Loved You

I told you I loved you
Yup, that's what I did
I could finally let go
After all the years it hid

And you found it creepy
Couldn't accept the fact
And even after all you said
My feelings were still intact

You decided to tear apart
The friendship that we had
While I sat here crying
You didn't even look sad

All this time I trusted you
With everything in your hands
There's just one question
That still stands

Are we still friends?
Just tell me that much
Please, I just can't
Live without your touch

Right now, I have to act
Pretend I don't love you
While inside I die watching
Everything you do

Falling for my sister,
I didn't think that you'd ever
But it's all good right now
Since you aren't yet together

But who knows how soon
That that day will come
I don't think I can stand watching
God, I'm so dumb

I still can't accept the fact
That our friendship is over
I can't stop thinking about you
Keep looking over my shoulder

Hoping you'll come back
And our friendship will mend
But this time, it has to be real
Not like last time, just pretend

At least, that's what I think
Or are you putting up an act too?
Does it really disturb you that much
Since I told you I loved you?

Having to watch you love my sister
Everyone so clueless about me
And you smiling happily with her
Hoping you're meant to be

You know she don't love you
Yet why are you willing to wait?
You're going to make me jealous
And start to fill up with hate

Our friendship was put on the line
As I gave away my heart
Because I didn't think
That you'd let us be apart

This broken friendship
Waiting there, to be rebuilt
If we do mend this friendship
Will you still feel any guilt?

I still don't understand
How all this, I made you do
All because of one simple thing
I told you I loved you.
[c] 2O05