Fill Up With Guilt

I look into your eyes
Not being able to smile
You look down at me
Looking confused for a while

You ask me what's wrong
I tell you nothing
I begin to fill up with guilt
For the real answer is everything

I feel so guilty lying to you
But I have no choice
Every time I try to confess
I lose my voice

You put your hand in front of me
I look at you confused
You tell me to give you my hand
I reach out weakly as if I'd been abused

I hate not telling you the truth
But how can I when you don't love me?
All this pain I hide inside
All so that you can't see

Can't see the truth
That's right before your eyes
The fact that I love you
Behind all those sighs

Every time I said I was okay
Every time I pushed you away
Every time I looked you in the eye
Every time I wanted to cry

I was filling up with guilt
Having to lie to you everyday
I LOVE YOU...
Was all I wanted to say.
[c] 2O05