Secret Love

I'll never mean much to you
I'm just another girl
Love between you and I
Will never exist in your world.

You see me as just a little sister
A "little girl" that looks up to you
That will never change
You'll never feel the way I do

You'll never know how I feel
Because I've grown so afraid
I'm unable to tell you how I feel
In fear of losing the friendship that we made

I hide all my feelings
Whenever you're around
And once you disappear
They fall to the ground.

A knife stabs right through me
My heart beats rapidly in fear
Then I fall to my knees
And down rolls a tear.

I sit there listening to you
Inside, cringing in deep pain
As you continue to talk about her
Driving me insane

Storing away all my feelings
Keep them locked up deep inside
No matter how jealous I get
I still continue to hide.

My feelings for you grow stronger
Each and every time we speak
But the more that you talk about her
The more I grow weak

No longer does she feel the same
She doesn't love you anymore
So I don't understand why you still here
When you can't have what you had before.

Her feelings are lost
While right now, mine begin to grow
I don't know why I said what I did
But now my feelings you'll never know.

I told you before
That I'd never feel for you that way
Now I'm falling for you
I don't know what else to say

I'm sorry for telling that lie
But I really thought at the time, that that was true
And now I can't help these feelings
I can't stop falling for you.

You didn't even need to love me
I was fine with being just your friend
I don't care if we stay that way
As long as I can be with you to the end.

But if you ever do end up falling
Then I promise I'll never leave your side
The affection that I'll show for you
I'll never want to hide.

I promise that I'll never lie
Like many other girls do
I promise that I'll mean it
Every time I say, "I love you."
[c] 2O06