Only one more cut...

I just wanted a little taste of the life I thought I left behind
To remember the pain of the life I live in my mind
One little cut couldn't possibly hurt
Besides the mark would be hidden by the shirt
But, the blood just kept flowing
Too much for me to bare
It was tempting me so heavily
I just had to cut more to dare
My hands were moving faster than my thoughts
And before I realized what happened
All I could see was blood
Flowing out in thick clots
Why is my skin so pale?
I look around in disbelief
I've been clean for so long
I just wanted a smidge of relief
But I guess this is the state in which I belong
Cold and bleeding on the floor
Wait, why is it so cold?
Why the f.u.c.k is it so damn cold?
The light seems to be fading away
How did these cuts get so deep?
My hands slow down and my mind speeds up
I look around and my clothes have been piled into a heap
Completely nude I look up and down my body
The cuts are splitting open
And the blood is pouring
This couldnt possibly be the end I was looking for
I just wanted to have one more
I start to slip away
F.u.c.k.
Today just might be the last cut.
Today just might be my last day.

Samantha
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