What hurts the most

There's a beautiful sunset outside,
It should be our sunset.
And I'm sitting here alone,
Wondering about you.
I'm thinking of how things used to be,
I'm remembering how you'd push my hair behind my ears.
I'm remembering how you'd pick me up and refuse to put me down til I kissed you.
I'm remembering how you'd call me just to hear my voice.
I'm remembering how you'd stay awake just to watch me sleep.
And it's killing me, you're killing me.

Ever since you everything is just second best,
There is no comparison for the quality we had.
The sun is less bright, the moon dull.
The stars don't sparkle with the same twinkling light,
My smile is more forced, and my heart needs the support to breathe.
I can't breathe without your kiss of life, I can't breathe.

I can sometimes still feel your touch,
When the wind blows past me gently,
It's your invisible fingers I feel brush my skin..
And I'm shivering but it's not from the cold.
You warm my frozen soul, and ignite the spark in my heart.
You give me everything I always wanted,
Yet you're everything I'm not.
You are my bright sun that shines for me,
And now I'm living in the dark, everything's too dark.

I miss your contagious laugh,
I miss the dimples with your smile,
I miss your safe arms,
I miss your eyes; the pools to your soul.
I miss your soothing voice,
I miss your gentle touch,
I miss you but you're gone... you're gone.

I could have been so good for you,
But I guess I forgot how to live.
I should have given you everything,
I should have taken the stars down and placed them around you,
I should have been your rainbow, but I was just the rain.
I should have done so much for you but I didn't.
And now I've lost it all, I've lost it all.

It's not the fact that you've moved on that hurts,
It's not that you smile because I'm not in your life.
It's not that we're just friends.
It's not that you'e her sunrise,
It's not that your hugs are less passionate,
Or your kisses extinct.
It's not the fact that I'm alone that hurts,
It's knowing I don't have to be.