Im alone

I alone looking out my window sill,
I see the flowers, they're in bloom.
I wonder how can things conflict so much,
Why are they happy and I feel doomed.

The bright warm sun it mocks me,
Shining everywhere but my window,
The vivid green grass teases me,
The beauty I will never know.

I see the children playing,
Their sweet laughter rips me apart.
Their bright shining eyes and smiles chill me,
Their warmth will never touch my heart.

I try to love them,
Open my heart and try.
But in the darkness love is lost,
Your only hope is to die.

I look a little further,
& see butterflies fluttering around,
I envy them for their wings and freedom,
I'm stuck here on the ground.

The children are playing again,
I try to wave and love them still,
But I'm ignored, cut off from the world,
I'm still here alone by my window sill.

My eyes are beginning to close,
Exhaustion is setting in.
I still can't stop looking,
Not even now that my eyes start to sting

No one knows me,
Just a blank face among the crowd.
It's hard to hear one pleading voice,
When the other hundred are so loud.

Outside I see the joy and warmth,
But I'm just cold and hard as stone.
I look out my window sill,
And I am all alone.