Before

Before I learned to hide my thoughts
Before I learned to keep answers short
Before I learned how to hide my hurt
Before I learned I'm worth less than dirt
Before I learned how to fake a smile
Before I learned not to be too wild
Before I learned that life's not fair
Before I learned that no one will be there
Before I learned not to kiss and tell
Before I learned how to fake happiness well
Before I learned to put off my work
Before I learned to trust every jerk
Before I found out that life is hard
Before I saw how they react to my scars
Before I felt pain through and through
Before I fell in love with you
Before my heart broke deep inside
Before those burning tears I cried
Before I learned not to tell the truth
Before I lived through the pain of youth
Before you made everything ok
Before I couldn't make it through the day
Before I turned to using the blade
Before I learned how to mask my hate
Before I learned social etiquette
Before I had to live my life of regret
Before I bought lighters, before I smoked weed
Before I wanted anything, before I had the need
Before my family broke in two
Before I learned that love isn't true
All this was when I was a little girl
My life back then feels like a different world.