I'm sorry i screwd up

I'm sorry i screwed up i had the world and when they started taking you away i was losing my world losing everything i wanted out of life. I cant go back I can only say that it heart me the most and i have the scars to prove it , and so dos she I'm hoping for some day that i can have at least a part of that back even if it can be threw friend ship b/c i miss my best Friend i gust wish i didn't do that i just want to die some times so that i dint feel the pain Anny more and didn't have to think the what ifs so that i didn't have to bring Anny buddy more pain