I cant count how many broken days and years
i woke up with hope but only found tears
since all my nightmares came my worst fears.
I wake up each morning thinking no one cares
I eat breakfast putting on a fake smile each morning
my parents think I have a whole life meaning
while in my head it's going to blow
because no one asked how things go
so i have these feeling i hold deep inside
there is nothing else left but to hide
to hide these lies and secrets in my heart
is where i began walking away and depart
I feel so alone this humongous world of mine
nothing can be done without destruction of the crime
this feeling of pure emptiness inside the very soul within
the pain that i have gone through is not compared with sin
it's the damaging of my heart and this treacherous pain
of all the new friends i have lost and gained ain't the same
it does not compare to the suffering i have been through
I have been through allot these past short years that flew
how can you tell me that i have not been through allot
if you have seen these crying tears flooding in a spot
if you have seen these blood shot hurtful eyes cry
then you now that I'm in so much pain that i want to die
I try to hold myself straight and tall and a bit stronger
trying to have the courage to talk a while longer
try to fix the thing things i have done wrong in my life
knowing that somehow I'll end up using my knife
because the damage that i hold is stronger then you
not even i can fix it with the medications and stew
nothing can fix this mental illness that i hold
thats it I'm through with trying to unfold
